April52014

Sometimes I feel so far away…I guess we all do this, all disassociative and floating through existence, separated from the actual here and now.  I float, and still I do, everything that must be done.

But more and more of me just floats, ethereal and fragile, like a soap bubble in a gentle breeze.  I exist childlike, warmed by this spark that emanates and keeps me flying, I keep away from the chill, the coldness and hardness of concrete that makes me fall and bleed and bruise.

I chose this.  I chose, I decided not to let the despair and darkness that has always percolated in and around me, like thick, oily, suffocating quicksand that pulls me under — I consciously rejected that reality.

I don’t want the sharp hard things that rend and flay.

I would rather be suspended, in time, in space, in my head, floating and waiting.

February112014
Time to get Pei Weisted at work.

Time to get Pei Weisted at work.

12PM
Today I have already been asked five times if I slept at all last night.

I did, but only after an hour of disconsolate sobbing like a child.  

Because of derby.  

Only something you really love can break your heart like that.  Six girls quit the team.

Today I have already been asked five times if I slept at all last night.

I did, but only after an hour of disconsolate sobbing like a child.

Because of derby.

Only something you really love can break your heart like that. Six girls quit the team.

February102014
A chunk actually was gouged out and hanging til I cut it off.

A chunk actually was gouged out and hanging til I cut it off.

January152014

I added a full lap to my timed laps!  

10AM
Work playlist.

Work playlist.

January142014

Friday, I delivered the bottom bread to the people I work with. Yesterday I had to deliver the meat of the sandwich.  Today, someone hates my guts.

I also delivered the top bread.

And I work on.  Because the work, it consumes me and my brain.

January132014

Magical!

8PM

Third

Tonight is the third time I am doing WFTDA skills tests for the third team I have skated with.  That’s what happens when one moves. 

I hope this is my home team for a while.

7PM
January112014
Custom made vintage style bikini! #rufflebutt

Custom made vintage style bikini! #rufflebutt

January92014
I love peeptoes with the perfect heel.
Please ignore the paleness of my legs.

I love peeptoes with the perfect heel.

Please ignore the paleness of my legs.

11AM

A different approach

I couldn’t do the work I do without my secretary and assistants. 

When there is an issue that comes up, my first response isn’t “Who $#/&ed up?!?” Instead, I try to figure out if there was a miscommunication,  where did the process trip up, how can I communicate better to prevent any breakdowns. I address and fix the problem and work together with my team to forestall any future issues.

I back my people up and consider myself responsible to the powers that be for any problems. 

I don’t play the blame game.

January82014
End of the day GPOY.

End of the day GPOY.

9AM

I have always strived to be someone my kids could talk to about anything.   Given the hilarious and rollicking discussion about hair on the nether regions I had with my boys last night, I felt quite successful in that regard.

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